In the thick still air of a sweltering summer night…
Friday, July 01, 2005
…life seems a little suffocating.
In a city of so many people, it’s hard to believe that one can feel so very alone. Surrounded by friends, family, cow-orkers and even the thousands of random strangers you pass everyday, you’d think that it’s difficult to be isolated. But it’s not.
They may be peaches or coconuts, but either way, you don’t easily get far beyond the surface of anyone’s personality. Actually, it’s not even that. You just don’t connect because sometimes your struggles are just your own. No one can quite understand what you’re going through. Maybe YOU don’t even understand what you’re going through. Mostly the isolation is self-induced anyway. And so you sit alone in silence, hoping that this phase of life will pass soon.
Strangely, I welcome the quiet, alone time. I’ve never really been one for solitary activity. I’ve always been far to active and social to even consider the merits of solitude, even though so many sermons were preached about how Jesus was a great example of someone who spent time alone, communicating with the Father. But recently, it has been much easier to see the benefits of taking time out; maybe this appreciation only comes with maturity. All I know is that, looking back, despite the fact that the alone time was forced upon me by circumstance, those were the times that I grew most. So maybe I should just think of this time as a growth spurt, and I’m once again experiencing growing pains.
Or maybe I’ll just sleep it off and it’ll all go away.
While solitude and thoughtful reflection are both high on my favorite to-do list (ha!),I have to say that an even BETTER way of passing the time (if you need to) is to call your friendly Columbia-bound people and offer up a proposal of food. And laughter. Which I personally would never dare refuse!
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